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im trying to be the perfect girl, for my parents to love me just like how they love my eldest sister and the youngest.. i tried to join a beauty contest even though I know it sucks, that the only purpose is to show off and compare the beauty level of the involve ladies , I tried to win although I know that I’m ugly, that I don’t have the poise, NOT LIKE MY SISTER’s.. yeah, I may have won the title.. but.. im not contented of that.. I didn’t prove anything except that we are a well-to-do family.. I want to prove something.. I want to prove to them that im not just an intelligent gurl.. im insulted when my mom told my sister behind my back that if not because of the wit I have.. I AM NOTHING..
im not responsible, im not orderly and clean when it comes to my room, im soooo lazy and all that kind of stuff.. nta pirmi n sna aku ang nhiling ninda? si ate, ig-iwal aku, pirmi igpa-hiling n panget aku, na photogenic xea.. pirmi nlng xea dapat ang bida.. aku p ang igdagitan ta aku daa ang ng-iwal.. pareho an pg si dona, ang paruton kng tugang.. dae pde, for once, aku man ang mging bida? dae pde, maski once, ipa-hilng nndaa n luvd aku? mnsan naicp ku.. aki ninda tlga aku o ampon sna?
they said that they love ate tweet (vina), because she’s the eldest, ivan, because he’s the only boy, dona, because she’s the youngest.. but how about me?? a trying-hard, braniac-wannabe. unattractive freak? Helur? I know im not a good-looking gurl, but they need not to point it out, nakulugan man bga aku.. tawo man bga aku, bako man ako hayop na pgpara laiton ninda.. maybe before, my self-confidence is high.. for some time, they made me believe that im lovely.. but now.. I don’t know? There’s no one to boost my self-esteem.. I don’t believe in myself anymore.. self-pity n..
kea nane, maski man lng sa karaw.. im saying “im beautiful”.. hanggang pangarap n sna kaso ito.. haay.. people often misinterpret my attitude.. maybe, it’s just because they don’t know the real me.. dae ninda aram ang “the other side” of me.. ang mkahirak na aku.. tunai n maogma aku pg kaba ku ang brkda buda gibu ki iba ibang kara2wan… but when it comes to other people.. oh, shocks.. need a mask to cover my misery.. pretend to be happy.. smile dgdi, smile duman.. iba sna attitude ku, pag dusta, or mga FC (feeling close), FG (mentioned in about me section).. I wanna feel loved.. sna, pirmi ku n sna kaiba bezzy ku.. ta nane hapi n aku pirmi.. sna, baku n aku si LOREN BOLILAN.. haay…
